BurpeeZombie

I’m so happy that I’m not the only one feeling this way! I really agree about being ready to start my life again. I only gained this weight within the last 2 years, and I feel like I’m 70 years old. I’m in pain all the damn time. I would love to go hiking with my fiancé but I have no energy and feel like crap all the time. Im so ready to start living my life again!!

I’m literally sitting in the parking lot of my doctors office. After about a month or lurking I decided to finally join this forum, since this is actually seeming real. I’ve been debating this surgery for over a year, but felt I could “do it on my own”. I keep trying to not get too excited, because i was sure that I wouldn’t qualify, or the out of pocket cost would be too much. The doctor seemed confident that I wouldn’t get denied by insurance. I also found out my only out of pocket cost is $500!!! What?!?! That includes all my presurgey step like ultrasound, NUT, psych, endo, etc. Plus, a year or post surgery NUT! This seems amazing!! The only thing is I have to lose 10 pounds by surgery, which could be IN APRIL!! I was fully thinking it would be no earlier than July! I have no problem losing 10 pounds, I’m just freaking out It could happen so soon. I’m so excited! Also, I’m so scared. Scared this is the worst decision of my life. Scared I will regret this. Scared I could have done this on my own. Scared I will miss food. Scared I will be jealous of my fiancé eating food. Scared I will feel like I’m “missing out”. Scared of ruining my body. Ugh.