I wish I had some life changing advice for you ♡ What youre going through sounds very difficult and isolating. I think any massive change has the potential to be catastrophic for people. The surgery affects hormones massively, this is something my surgeon talked to me at length about. Also, if you're on hormonal birth control that may be in play as well. Give yourself a moment to think about your worth- you are worthy, which is why you had the surgery in the first place! You're dealing with a whole lot and can't go back in time and change a thing. Take a deep breath and think about what you can do in this moment to help yourself. One thing at a time. Best wishes ♡ Sent from my SM-N920V using BariatricPal mobile app