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Revision from sleeve to bypass on the 22nd- I’m so ready to get rid of this GERD

I’m 5’1- my weight on the day of surgery was 256.6 lbs and my BMI was 48. It’s been almost 10 months since surgery, I’m down to 140.8 lbs and a BMI of 26.6. I went from a size 24 jeans to a 2.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

My initial goal was set by my doctor- it was 170-180. That would have had me losing the average amount for my weight loss surgery patients for my starting weight. I passed that and set a goal for 150 lbs. When I passed that, I lowered it to 135 lbs. I’m 130 now and trying to get to 125 lbs. I don’t know where I’ll stop. I lost 15 lbs after my brother died in August and am getting ready to go through a divorce so we’ll see where I end up. The extra skin bothers me but not as much as being 282 lbs bothered me.

Met with my primary care and surgeon in the last week and forgot to ask both of them about what my goal should be! Anyway, I'm 4 lbs away from my first goal where I qualify for that hip surgery, then I'll think of my next goal!

My initial goal was set by my doctor- it was 170-180. That would have had me losing the average amount for my weight loss surgery patients for my starting weight. I passed that and set a goal for 150 lbs. When I passed that, I lowered it to 135 lbs. I’m 130 now and trying to get to 125 lbs. I don’t know where I’ll stop. I lost 15 lbs after my brother died in August and am getting ready to go through a divorce so we’ll see where I end up. The extra skin bothers me but not as much as being 282 lbs bothered me.

My initial goal was set by my doctor- it was 170-180. That would have had me losing the average amount for my weight loss surgery patients for my starting weight. I passed that and set a goal for 150 lbs. When I passed that, I lowered it to 135 lbs. I’m 130 now and trying to get to 125 lbs. I don’t know where I’ll stop. I lost 15 lbs after my brother died in August and am getting ready to go through a divorce so we’ll see where I end up. The extra skin bothers me but not as much as being 282 lbs bothered me.

I’ve been doing tattoos. Ever since i was 4 years old I’ve loved tattoos. I had a few done before surgery but never felt like I was pretty enough or worth the time and money to get beautiful art done on such a hideous body. Now post op, I’ve been going and having pieces done a that I’ve wanted for years.

I’ve been doing tattoos. Ever since i was 4 years old I’ve loved tattoos. I had a few done before surgery but never felt like I was pretty enough or worth the time and money to get beautiful art done on such a hideous body. Now post op, I’ve been going and having pieces done a that I’ve wanted for years.

....about a 6-8. To see this 10 be so big on me. Brought me to tears. I don't know this life.
HW: 265 lbs
SW: 255 lbs June 2017
CW: 128 lbs

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I’m 5’1- my weight on the day of surgery was 256.6 lbs and my BMI was 48. It’s been almost 10 months since surgery, I’m down to 140.8 lbs and a BMI of 26.6. I went from a size 24 jeans to a 2.

I was 31 when I went to the information session for my surgeon’s office and 32 when I actually had the surgery done. I wish I would have done it 10 years ago.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I’m 5’1- my weight on the day of surgery was 256.6 lbs and my BMI was 48. It’s been almost 10 months since surgery, I’m down to 140.8 lbs and a BMI of 26.6. I went from a size 24 jeans to a 2.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I'm a 33 year old hairstylist and mom of three. I love tattoos and geeky conventions and Supernatural. I'm witty and sarcastic. I appreciate a good cup of coffee and have an affinity for terrible action movies.

I don’t even know why I’m posting this other than I need to get it out.
By processing your feelings in part (here), you're already helping yourself to grieve in a healthier way. While I can't feel your pain (no one can), I can sense a great deal of strength in your words. And it's that strength and your determination to get through this without food that will help you to become even stronger. You're already stronger than you think. That said, don't walk around with a brave face. Now isn't the time. Strong doesn't mean numbing out or denying your feelings. I've always found crying to be very cleansing. Big girls do cry.
By not allowing yourself to head down a destructive path to cope with your loss, you are, in a sense, honoring yourself... and by honoring yourself, you are honoring your brother. And your mother. And your young daughter who must be hurting terribly seeing you in so much pain. Comfort your daughter. Sometimes when we look beyond our own pain, by comforting another, we are able to comfort ourselves, too.

My brother was a kidney recipient 9 years ago and we’ve set up a fundraiser for the American kidney fund in his name and seeing the donations warms my heart. He was also an avid golfer and despite knowing nothing of golf, other than my love of putt putt, I might try to learn.

I’m just reeling in grief. I don’t want to turn to food. And I won’t let myself. But as of right now, I’m barely eating. Barely drinking. Everything makes me nauseated. I don’t know how to cope with this. I’m just so lost.

My brother was a kidney recipient 9 years ago and we’ve set up a fundraiser for the American kidney fund in his name and seeing the donations warms my heart. He was also an avid golfer and despite knowing nothing of golf, other than my love of putt putt, I might try to learn.

I’m just reeling in grief. I don’t want to turn to food. And I won’t let myself. But as of right now, I’m barely eating. Barely drinking. Everything makes me nauseated. I don’t know how to cope with this. I’m just so lost.

I’m 9 months post op and was doing great. Down 110 lbs since surgery and following all the rules. Then on August 10th, my big brother died suddenly from a massive heart attack. I’m spiraling. I’m not hitting any nutrition goals. I’m barely eating, barely drinking and don’t know how to even begin to process this loss. I feel like I’m drowning. When my mom died 8 years ago (her funeral and my brother’s were 8 years to the day apart) I was pregnant. Once my daughter was born, the grief hit me and i turned to food and put on 45 lbs. this time- I can’t do that. I won’t do that. So I’m drowning in grief with no idea how to cope with it because I can’t eat my feelings. I don’t even know why I’m posting this other than I need to get it out.