Toriann94

Surgery date was 9/5/17. i can still only eat jello, fruit, and juices, my body doesn't like protein shakes. I'm weak and thirsty. I'm not doing good with this surgery at all. My doctor thinks it's all in my head. Which it is, I'm terrified to eat regular food. Like to the point that I try and I throw it up. Tomorrow I'm going to try a different kind of protein shake. ive tried apple sauce, sugar free pudding, Eggs, The doctors have done a leak and tablet test and everything came back normal and fine. Blood work looked great too! I hiccup 24/7 and when I throw up...it's awful, it drains me. I'm not starving but internally I am. I wake up at 3 am and start gagging, I then get up and drink some juice and eat a table spoon of jello and then wait 1 1/2 hrs before I can go back to bed, granted this is if I go to sleep at 10pm which is normal for me because I'm that tired. Heartburn is real, I take meds for that and it works but sometimes like today it's like the fruit I consumed is still in my throat. I chew slow and eat tiny bites. Move probably never been full since surgery and I don't want to be because I hear it hurts. How do I over come of being afraid to eat normal food again. Did anyone struggle with that?? i keep in contact with my nutritionist and doctor and they think it's all in my head. Help me please! I feel like death 24/7 -Tori