vonzims

Omg I JUST left my surgeons office an hour ago after meeting her for the first time. I have to go for a scope to check my stomach lining, but otherwise she said I should get in for surgery within a couple months after the scope. I have the exact same fears. I’m scared I’ll regret doing this, that I’ll be hungry all the time, scared that I’ll be sick or puking all the time, scared I’ll stretch my stomach back out and ruin everything I’ve worked so damn hard for, scared that I won’t lose much more weight (my BMI is currently 32 but was 43 when I started my journey) and just all over scared. I’m also excited. So freaking excited - excited to start the rest of my life, excited to enjoy doing activities with my boyfriend again, excited to be in less pain, excited to not hate looking at pictures of myself, excited to not have to pay a dime for any of my surgery/pre-op day post op stuff, besides food/shakes. Congrats on getting this far, and you can pinch yourself cuz you’re not dreaming! This is really happening!!