ShelleyBelle

Everyone, I am so afraid I'm going to gain all the weight back! I started at almost 300 lbs. when I had my surgery in July of 2015. I was in the high 160's with only about 10 lbs. to go until I reached the goal weight I had set for myself at 150. My surgeon originally said he thought I'd probably level out at 180, but I refused to accept that as my goal weight. Now, I am wondering if he actually knew because of his experience that 180 is about what I'd be able to maintain, or if I allowed his words to become a self-fulfilling prophecy. I have been gaining and am so unhappy with myself, but can't seem to get it together! I am only 5' tall so I just can't be happy with that weight. I see people who have lost weight to the point that I would consider them "skinny" and, while I don't actually want that goal for myself, I can't understand why I can't take charge of myself and finish this job! I am begging for advice about how to keep this issue from becoming a "run away train"! I need help and direction to get myself back on track and would welcome some tried-and-true advice. My life is so incredibly better....it would devastate me to go back to the old way of (non)living. I am dancing, walking and enjoy feeling like myself after 30 years of being a bystander who only watched everyone else enjoy life. Please show me the way! I am so afraid of what could happen! I would appreciate any and all support and help you can offer! Thank you!