bluebonz36

Thank you for the advice. Yes much of this journey I do feel like I just need time and space to do some inner soul searching. I feel it in my spirit. I was planning and saving for a road trip up to the mountains this summer for my surgiversary and ended up having to spend what I saved. We were going to go as a family, but the more close summer gets I feel I am supposed to go alone. I don't think anyone around me would understand why I would make a trip like that on my own.

OMGoodness yes!!!! that is exactly how I am feeling except I just want to run away. Already planned to have a job in another town and a place to live with my kids. I told my husband that we needed counseling or I was out the door. It's only been 2 weeks but things are somewhat better. I am sorry this has happening to you. If I didn't have such an awesome support system through my church family I think I would have run a long time ago. I have thought about taking a class at the local Community college and have started to learn how to quilt which is very therapeutic. Mental illness does run in my family so I am pretty in tune with what symptoms I am experiencing but medication is not for me at the moment. Thank you ladies for sharing. Just getting it all out made me feel a little relief. Both of you be blessed and take care.

So I am 9 months post-op. I am a wife, mother, friend, sister and daughter... and feel no identity with any of these... Somewhere along the path of life I lost who I was... who I am. With all the hormonal changes that come with this surgery most days I am over whelmed and filled with anxiety. I feel like no one understands what I am experiencing. Along with the emotional side the changes that I have physically are great because I feel better, but with all this flappy skin I feel worse about myself then before I had surgery. My marriage was kinda rocky before and now even more so because I am more out spoken and independent. I fell like I just exist from day to day. I thought I would get out of this funk and it's just not passing... I guess I am just needing to know if anyone can relate to any of this...