Imtrying

OK this may not be what you are looking for but this is my confession. I will be banded for 5 yrs 4/1 I did great the first yr lost 165 lbs but with many struggles I was soooo hungry! all the time!!! All I ever ate was protien shakes h2o and mushy foods I was very disaplined my first yr. well all went to heck in a handbasket and started to eat anything I could get down I was just hungry sad to say everything BAD for me ie. cookies shakes, ice cream...... need I say more? thank God I maintaied my weight but now I have been slowly going back up. and I should tell you in these past 5 yrs I got out of a relationship and into a good one and married, and had a baby a year ago. and gained NO weight during my pregnecy!!! for a first time! well now I just can"t seem to get back on the wagon. I tried I go to meetings and talked to my band DR. because I cant eat anything good for me, meat is out of the question. no matter how much I chew. raw veggies, fruit... all plugs me I can't even eat yogart with chunks in it. I just want to eat a salad with onions, peas baco bits and ranch, and HO how I LONG for a roast beef sandwich w/ cheese, lettuse and mayo on whole wheat bread. my to fave things I havent had in 5 long years! I really am thinking about having my band either removed and have a bypass or try it with drained all the way I have a 4cc band and when I got pregnant I had my fill taken down to 2cc from a 3.5cc and I cant tell any difference between the two so I don't know if nothing will help. sorry this was so long but this is what I have been doing the last 4 yrs eating nothing but junk! junk! junk! as I'm eating M&M's now :crying: I'm hungry!