I have been lurking for several weeks and this morning sitting here feeling bad after another bad night with a migraine. I was sitting here reading everyone's comments and thought how much this forum has helped me so I think I should write too...maybe it well help someone...maybe it will help me.
I had my initial consult on the 21st. I am like so many others, I've been up and down all my life. Tried every diet, exercise, how to book that came along. Some worked for a time but eventually the weight piled back on and each pound brought a friend.
The decision to get sleeved was pretty much a no brainer. I have had every emotion you can have, excited, worried, scared, eager, angry, disgusted, happy, relieved, anxious, nervous, ashamed, proud, resilient, defeated, determined.....to name a few.
I've combed through my pictures, saw myself at my best and at my worst.
I know this journey won't be easy. I'm eager to start one minute and too tired the next. I spent last night gasping for breathe which resulted in yet another massive migraine. I had planned on shopping for Proteins, containers, etc. Things I would need for the up coming surgery but lack of sleep, sore head and hang over from the migraine meds has me sitting here, instead of out in the cool hours of the morning enjoying my day off and doing something interesting.
I hate this body.
But I love me....so I will continue to fight...keep struggling...to move forward.
I'm in the valley for now but I am ever more determined to claw, crawl and fight my way out of it!
...starting with the first step....
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