MinaDina

I know the feeling, Cruz I've lived it too. Im already extremely caustious when dealing with strangers. As well as the weight loss I'm scared and excited to see how my interactions with people change. Its hard for me to forgive so if you treated me like crap at my heaviest, I want you keep treating me like crap when you think Im socially acceptable...sounds crazy I know.

What happened to you is what worries me the most. Im trying to just let it go in my mind because what's gonna be will be... but its there lingering in my mind.

So in less than a month now I'll be taking this leap into the unknown. I'm constantly reading other people's stories and wondering how good...or bad this whole experience will be for me. I guess I'm mainly worrying about the first few weeks. Anyone who's post op please tell me a few things you'd wish you had known before you woke up after the surgery?

Hello all! My names Tori and I'm trying to be more social here. Lol. If anyone in the area or within 2 hours driving distance wants to buddy up...I'm your gal! I'm also your gal if you just need an online buddy as well. I'm going under August 4th in case you want to compare...

I've been exactly where you are. My insurance changed its requirements literally the day before my surgeons office submitted my paperwork. So when I should have been through I had to prolong the surgery even more and do 3 months with a dietitian. Now this is just me...I'm weird like this, but every month I went back to the dietitian I had gained weight. It literally made no sense because I was doing what they told me. They said only drink water, I did. Eat more greens, I did. Exercise, I did. Replace meals with protein shakes,I did. Eat three protein rich meals a day, I did. You get the picture. My last visit and she says to me "what are you doing different? You're gaining" I said I'm doing what you told me...what everyone says you're supposed to do. Needless to say I left that day in a funk, I was sure insurance was going to make me do another 3 months...I worried for nothing. 3 days later I was approved. I know everyone's insurance is not the same, but if I were you I'd just stay positive about it. And don't beat yourself up over gaining. After my last visit I stopped following the way the dietitian told me to eat(meaning I started having juice and eating less than 3 meals ) and I lost pounds...not advocating that everyone, I'm just telling my story. Anyways good luck to you,I'm sure everything will go through fine.

Hello All! I'm August 4th and I'm probably gonna have some kind of panic attack before then. lol! I've switched surgeons and subsequently procedure type all over the last month. It's been a long time coming I'm just ready to get this chapter of my life rolling. ~Tori~

Thanks for your support everyone! I'm feeling ok about the alone part. Now just the usual pre-surgery nerves are setting in. My surgery date is August 4th and I've got the jitters. I'm an intense researcher of everything so I look at a lot of different angles and end up worrying myself for nothing. lol! I'm really gonna make an effort to try and engage in more activity on the forums. Who knows maybe I'll work myself up to going to a meeting. I really like the idea of volunteering as well. I've been wanting to volunteer at a homeless shelter in the city as well as the ASPCA. I'm going to look into those after I've dropped a few pounds.

I live in a city where I literally have no family and real friends, I moved here for work, and have hated every minute of it. The closest thing I have is a former older roommate and her preteen daughter. I know she's there for me,but she's not like a friend that really understands my plight. I've always been self sufficient, been a loner, been fully capable of doing and somewhat enjoying things alone. I know that my mother and other out of state friends are only a phone call away, but it's not the same as someone literally next to you. I always hear encouragement about going to support groups. I've got social anxiety and don't feel like I'm quit ready for a group setting just yet. I'm trying not to let any of this get me down, but when I had my last visit and was being told about your days in the hospital all I could do was imagine myself alone in this hospital room...texting. lol! Sounds crazy, but it made me feel alone inside. I know I can't be the only person who feels or has felt like this.