sanjumelts

I started my process 8 months back and through much hard work I have been given a date. I will be having my gastric sleeve on April 11. I was ecstatic when the surgeon told me that I had shown enough weight loss to schedule me. The thing is that the closer I get to the date, the more sadness comes over me about the whole situation. Questions about things that I could have done to rid the need for this completely. It's strange because I never thought this way during the whole process until I received a date. I guess being busy with the process itself kept my mind away from the fact that I was actually working towards something that would be a huge change in my life. I've always been a big guy throughout my 23 years. There is nothing more that I want than to be healthy and live an active life. I should be looking forward to this no? Did any of this community feel any type of doubt and sadness as the surgery approached? Maybe it's fear, maybe it's not but I would love some insight.