You are in fight or flight mode. When on a airplane going down you are taught to help yourself first so that you are able to help others later! Take care of yourself first you've come this far why turn back. Rather ask your self why he's not doing the cooking & giving you the support that you deserve. Do this for you! Don't allow someone else's insecurities jeopardize your goals. Possibly a loving heart to heart convo is needed here. Set some boundaries. People get away with what we allow. Don't allow him to sabotage something that could change your life for the better. Hope this helps. Everything handled in love has a positive outcome.