JudeaJordon

I just realised that I never really put myself first and if I really cared about myself I wouldn't be destroying myself with these bad habits I think this whole process is about loving yourself and being comfy ethos in your own skin and actually saying hey I am worth it this doesn't need to go in my body it's bad for me, yeah I'm gonna cheat sometimes but eventually everything I pick my self back up I get that little bit stronger, just stay positive everybody and remember you are worth it and to love yourself God bless!

Thank you my love and yes we do struggle everyday, I am trying to keep my hopes up just so emotional and when I ate the hot dog I was even more emotional the fact that I couldn't control myself is just a horrible feeling, the daydreams are the worst I know for its oh this is the last time I'll ever eat this and then I just binge, I hope one day I can say I conquered this addiction bless all of you xoxo

My goodness that is so true like food is an actual person, the way I been talking about it lately is really sad just saw my anethetist today and he said if you stick to this diet for the last 5 days it's extremely likely that we can do the surgery, I was supposed to be on intifada for 6 weeks and I cheated about 10 times and I went to go see my surgeons assistant today and told her I lost 12 kgs and she looked at me in disgust as I walked out I just started crying and realised I need this surgery so bad my addiction to food is ruining my life, hope you hang in there Hun bless you!

My addiction to food is overwhelming I just had a hot dog I couldn't help my self and now I'm crying I'm over food ruling my life but I can't help it!!!!!!

I really loved the 6th paragraph was kinda poetic I loved it thank you!

Oh clearly did I! Well keep your straightness to to yourself!

Excuse me who said I think it's ok my doctor didn't say I had to quite but I'm planning to before surgery was asking others how long did they quite before there surgery, why even comment if your going to be sour don't need it!

Lol you!!!!

I smoke about 3 smoke a day and I told my doctor but he didn't say that I had to stop, is anyone else the same and if not how long did you quite prior to surgery, please no arrogant people!

I'm on the 21 started my pre op diet 3 days ago and cheated today and yesterday, I need to re focus and stop fooling my self I just hope my doctor passes me I'm excited and nervous but it's going to be great!

I totally realise that it's no quick fix, and yes on this pre op diet you theory is so real for me to, I start to think of the past and things I never used to just because I'm not able to eat wich worry a me a bit I know this is no magic wand and it's hard work, my primary reason why I'm so big is eating till I'm fully or sick so in that way surgery would help me a lot, I have someEmotional obstacles that I know will come after surgery even now but I'm so ready it's better then being depressed, so funny In my head I always saw myself differently to how big I actually was call it delusion or what have you, did you have pre jitters pre op about if you were ready but you knew were and needed surgery?

Did surgery help anyone with anxiety, sleep apnea and all round confidence and did anyone feel like they weren't loving life and now they are?

Awesome awesome awesome, I'm nervous and excited to see the changes that come Iv always been overweight so it would be strange for me. Did your guys surgery boost your confidence and I'm currently on anti anxiety and depressant pills did it help at all emotionally! And yes zombie land is one of my favs!?!

In what ways did surgery change y'all life?

Really craving food family is having Chinese for dinner and I can smell it in the air, on preop diet wouldn't hurt if I had some would it lol I know:(

Thanks guys I really needed this just reminded me why I'm doing it, to be honest pre op diet has been really hard on me mentally and like you said fill that bottom less belly I can eat so much it's crazy and it's so easy to just pick up the phone and dial pizza wich sounds amazing right now, my belly won't stop tossing and turning and I'm just tiered all the time not to mention extremely moody wich for me is don't take anyone's shit lol. It's true what they say old habits die hard sometimes I just go into the fridge and stare at it wich is bad! I'm getting there and this information hasn't given me so much insight I love it thank you!

Sorry for the spelling mistakes lol.

I'm so excited I'm still on pre op diet I have 2 weeks and 4 days to go, another question how are you emotionally towards for now or where you even an emotional eater I am defiantly one and I'm excited and nervous good or bad to see the changes mentally to and what's your view on food now is it more for energy or do you still feel the same way prior?

Thank you so much for being so specific, what I was wondering to when you say satisfied is it the same as being satisfied like after a big meal preop like when your full do you sit there and go I wish I could eat more or are you just full?

Is being full post op feel the same as pre op?

thank you so much I really need that!!!!!! Thankyou

M@@Linzlou I know right it's pretty much all I can think about when I'm not drewling over what I can't eat!

@armadorb20 it took pretty much the whole of this year to process everything just waiting list and stuff and finally it's soon, and pretty much my whole life lol like I wasn't big big when I was younger but I wasn't the slimmest lol, I get kinda freaked out watching people who have lost all there weight I'm like how do you act when your skinny I'm so used to being big lol!

How exciting I just can't wait to get my life back and start doing things again I know it will be all worth it! I hope not for you either lol it's horrible I must seem like a major biznatch to my family! Counting down the days now!

21 of October yeah little just so moody and very snappy, I hope I'm not like this after surgery!