I definitely didn't take it as shaming or being mean. I know they are only there to help me, and for goodness sakes, I sought them out for help, not the other way around. I was just disappointed in myself that I disappointed them, in not doing something they expected I would be doing. I guess I just didn't realize I was suppose to start already, in my mind I am just trying to wrap my brain around how things will be after surgery, to start now was just not something I expected. I think after I digest my appointment and think about small things I can do, I won't seem so daunting. Thanks guys for all of your words of encouragement and advice!