Thankyou for your response, your spelling is fabulous. I don't think I will make my decision common knowledge. My closest friend knows as does my family, the only real issue they seem to have is the cost and all the other things I could spend the money on. They don't understand that I don't enjoy anything because how I feel about me.......I can't wait to begin this adventure. It feels like a new beginning. x (I have to add my husband is amazing and is paying for the surgery, he says I don't need to do it for him but if it will make me happier then it will be worth it)