QueenieB

Thanks so much. Nice to know I'm not the only one

I been given my surgery date January 16th and I still don't feel like I'm actually gonna go through with it. I still feel like I can do this on my own. Just like so many I've been up/down my whole life. I've given up and feel this is the only thing left to try. It has been over a year of tests and appointments and I feel like I should be excited but I'm terrified. What if I die during or after from doing this surgery? What if I die from not doing it? I'm tired of being tired! What if it doesn't work? Or doesn't work the way it should? What if I look worse than I do now? Everybody will be watching and monitoring my every move after! What I eat, how much I eat etc... People thinking I've taken the easy way out. I know and you know it's not but it still bothers me a bit. How much pain will I be in after? I know everybody is different but what should I prepare for? I'm reading tons of books and going online but...... Anybody else feel this way???