Flipstash

Thank you! I just got back from the cardiologist and, of course, he wants a whole string of tests. No surprise there! He also wants me to reconsider surgery. His take was "You are young enough to drop the weight yourself. If you were in the 300lb + I might consider such drastic measures, but at 248 and 52 yrs old I HIGHLY suggest a dietician and exercise" I've known this doctor for years as he is my dad's cardiologist. I am thinking I may need to reconsider my options!

So...I have to say I am sadly disappointed with my first appointment! The first thing that bugged me was the insurance deal....my insurance covers 100% of bariatric surgery!! Sounds wonderful right? Well this clinic stated I had to have TWO doctors assigned to me...one was IN NETWORK and the other, conveniently, OUT OF NETWORK. What is THAT? I bantered a bit, making it clear how shady this seems, but they kept the conversation moving. I felt unheard and dismissed. Second, I was told I am a better candidate for the bypass and NOT the sleeve. The reasoning was just unreasonable!! It felt to me the real reason was they get more money! I also learned I need to see a cardiologist, which is neither here nor there, and I have already made that appointment. (Sorta saw that coming anyway) So...I will continue to keep this option on my plate, but NOT with this clinic! I need to deal with the heart thing first. I can live fat, but I can't live without a heart! I had high hopes and I am a bit disappointed, but they are not the only game in town! Who knows, maybe I'm looking down the barrel of a triple by-pass and I will lose a huge chuck healing from that! Onward and upward!!

I'm super excited and nervous and happy and scared...all at once! I have started telling family members and a few close friends about my decision...I really thought I would get push back, especially from family, but (almost) everyone is super happy for me and thinks this is the right thing to do! I don't know what the appointment will be like. I do know I have never been excited about a doctor appointment in my life.

I'm not going to get all fancy with this entry...or any of them. I am not fancy. I am fat. Not that fat can't be fancy...I digress... I went to the seminar and turned in my insurance info to get my first appointment. I have to wait 6 months for my insurance, but that will fly by. I think it's better for me this way. I can take the time to wrap my head around the lifestyle changes I will have to make. I am already feeling better about my future! I have dug out clothes I haven't worn in years! I am so excited about being a normal sized person! About not having to take all these pills! About coming off the diabetic list!! I'm getting my life back! I WANT TO LIVE! I want to live my life inside MY new lighter body! I can't wait!!!