My feelings are going the same way...My surgery is the 8th of September...but I don't really talk about it with my Husband...more with my kids and my parents...I guess my readiness is good enough for him.... But my kids and parents was a another story...so many questions...but now since my date is so close everyone is happy and can't wait for it to be over with more than me...so I'm praying hard.....watching you YouTube videos.....reading so many different blogs.... I really understand you state of mind right now....I will add you to my praylist....and ttyl