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You can do it Kathy!!! I am rooting for you!!

kathy, I haven't weighed either, and I don't really feel like I am losing either. I do seem to be stressing less and less over the scales. I am even thinking I may forgo my scales completely and only weigh in once a month at the doctor. I don't know though. I haven't been wearing my bodybugg this week and haven't logged my food. I am putting it back on tonight and will begin logging. BTW, I read today that Michael Phelps consumes up to 10,000 calories a day!!!! WOW!! Obviously I don't need 10,000, but our bosies do need fuel for our running. So, remember to get in lots of good healthy calories.

I have a Gold's Gym 450 treadmill I got at Walmart. I really like it. I have run without a resting day, but I am convinced that our bodies need rest. As you know, I will push my body to the limit without resting. I have learned that is not always the best thing for my body. I am really trying to learn to find balance. Will I ever run 2 days in a row again?? I'm sure I will, but I can tell a HUGE difference after giving my body of couple of days of rest. I just finished week 7 day 3. It wasn't too bad. I am giong to move on to week 8 on Monday. I haven't gone through any of the kids clothes, but it felt really good to run. It seems that something that was once so foreign to me (running) has now become one of the only constants in my life right now. Who woulda thought????

I am staying on plan today because I want to stay consistant.

So sorry Georgia. I would definately get x rays as well. And, If you don't feel comfortable with what he says then go to someone else. I hope it get better really soon. So Sorry Bonnie, I was thinking week 5 not week 6. WAY TO GO ON THE 25 MINUTES!!!!! That is awesome. 25 minutes was really hard for me. You are doing great. Mamato - Hope your DH is feeling much better real soon. It is really hard to watch someone you care about hurting and taking care of them is very taxing too. YOu will be in my prayers. Hang in there. Today I am giong through clothes to begin preparing for the kiddos to leave. I have a closet full of bags of clothes. Friends have given us lots of clothes that don't necessarily fit now but will later, so I have saved lots of clothes. Mixed in with these clothes are things that came with the kids that I will need to send back, so I have to go through it all. YUCK. I am going to take a break sometime today and run. It has been too many days. It really is a nice distraction for me. I will probably run during nap time. I haven't run since Tuesday. I hope I still still complete my run. Hope everyone has a great Saturday!!

Hey guys! I will catch up with the thread later. Just wanted to check in. I didn't run today either, so that means I haven't run since Tuesday. I had to catch up paperwork, so I only got 4 hours of sleep last nightm, then we were gone all day, so i just don't have the physical energy to run tonight. We are doing ok. Just exhausted.. I will try to read the thread and catch up with everyone tommorow. Good night.

I have cautiously optomisitic news. Our social worker just called and they have found a placement where all 3 of my kiddos will go live together. I would get to take them for a preplacement visit and meet the family they will go to. Then they would come home for a couple of days and then I would take them to live there. This way, they won't be taken to strangers, but to someone that I have introduced them to. The family is also willing to maintain contact with us during the transition. They already have a special needs child so they understand what they are getting into with Shawn. See Kathy, I told you God has a Kathy out there for my Baby Shawn. I couldn't have asked for anything more. We are waiting for the state to approve the placement. Keep praying.

Sugar, Georgia actually PM'd me that verse yesterday. It is one of my favorites. I am very blessed to have been given the opportunity to care for them for this short time, and pray for them from now on. It's a pretty special deal, and it won't end when they leave. They probably won't know it, but Mama Amy will be praying for them often.

Thanks Leslie. Yesterday when I ran my 25 minutes without pooping out, I told DH that I didn't know if I was really progressing in my running or if I had so much pent up emoion that I was just able to run it out. Either way, it felt so good. Today was not a running day, but I will run tommorow. I have decided to forgo my Jillian dvd's this week as the dust settles. I am going to make sure I make good eating choices and I run every other day. That's it for this week. All of your kind words are so appreciated. It is so weird. I have never "met" any of you, but I can feel the sincerity of your posts. This is definately the best thread I have ever been a part of. You all rock!! I feel so much better tonight. BTW, I LVE the olympics. DH does not. So he sits in the living room with me, and while I watch the olympics he plays mariocart on his nintendo ds. The perfect comprimise. LOL Micheal Phelps ROCKS!!! I need to go to bed, but I am staying up to watch him run (oops, I meant swim) LOL

I admire you Kathy. There is a family like your's waiting for my Baby Shawn. They are going to be blessed more than they could imagine!!

Thanks Lyn. DH is awesome. I am trying to be very careful and not make him sound hard, because he is anything but. He was adopted, and 1 of our sons is adopted, so it isn't the whole adoption thing. He just hasn't adjusted well to 4 new kids in 1 1/2 years. He has tried really hard for almost a year to make the adjustment. he really wanted to be the solution for these 3 kids. The biggest thing we have learned through this is that God has a plan for all of us and these kiddos. We weren't meant to "save" them. We are just supposed to be obedient to what God has commanded of us. I feel like we have done that. Now, as DH says, we need to retreat and refocus on HIM and HE will direct our path.... Sorry I have highjacked the thread. You guys are the bomb!!!

The kids will leave sometime in the next 30 days. It just depends on how long it takes to find a placement. We have already told our older son. We just told himt he truth. We told him how we struggle to give them each one what they need. We told him that baby Shawn will go to live with a family that can better meet his special needs. He really understands, because he can see the strain. Don't get me wrong, DH and I have a wonderful marriage. I would put up against anyone I know, so I am not having to do this to save my marriage. More than that, I value the relationship we have and want to protect it. After all, that is how we got where we are. If I asked him to keep the baby and pushed him, then he would do it, but that is not fair to him or the baby. Baby Shawn has some special needs and, while he is the best, he is going to require a lot of care and attention. I believe with all my heart, that God has chosen a family for him, where both mom and dad are 100% committed to helping him thrive and grow. I wouldn't want anything less than that for him. I keep thinking of the saying, "Sometimes you have to love someone enough to let them go." Well, that is how I feel with the baby. I feel blessed and honored to have been able to give him a healthy happy start. Thanks for what you said Sugar. I will definately send pictures and make him a lifebook of his first year so his new mom and dad will know how much he was loved. I am not going to tell the other 2 until right before. They are so young. I think I am going to tell them that another family wants a chance to love them and take care of them because they are sooooo special. I want this to be as positive for them as possible. They are prescious little guys. A blessing to anyone. I know in my heart it is the right thing to do, but man that doesn't make it any easier.

I'm staying on plan today because I choose to.

Bonnie, you only have to run 20 minutes on Friday:)) I shouldn't have told you, then you would be going thinking you had 5 minutes left and you'd here the cool down tones. You will do awesome. I am having a rough week. I wasn't going to share this on here, but here's the short version. After much prayer and discussion, DH and i have decided not to do foster care anymore. We are also not going to adopt the baby we have had for 9 months. He came to live with us when he was 3 weeks old. Anyway, DH has really tried hard, but is having a very hard time adjusting to all of the noise and kid stuff. To put it bluntly, he is pretty miserable. As much as I love these little kids, we must protect our relationship first. We have been together since I was 16 and we are the VERY best of friends. I can't stand the thought of him being miserable from now on because he feels obligated. Anyway, within the next 30 days our baby, 2 and 4 year olds will go live somewhere else. We will then be a family of 4. Dalton is 8 and Dylan is 21 months. I can't even imagine only having 2 kids. I am very sad, but I would be lying if I didn't admit that I look forward to some of the freedoms it will bring. I will be able to be much more active. Anyway, I share this with yall because I am having a hard time the last couple of days making myself eat right and run. I have pushed through so far, and don't want to make bad choices to meet emotional needs. It doesn't work. I spent my adulthood learning that. now it's time to put what I have learned into practice. So......my dear friends, don't let me fall off the wagon!!!

Way to go Kathy!! That is a great accomplishment and sounds like you've had a great day!!

Well, I just finished my run for today, and yall are all right, my body thatnks me for the break. I ran the 25 minutes at 5.0 on the treadmill, and it was hard, but doable. I didn't feel like I was dying at the end. I think there is hope. I really needed a good run today!!

I'm staying on plan today because it is choosing each day to stay on plan that will get me to my goal.

Sugar, You are too funny. No, I am not sick, just tired. I really have pushed it to the limit, so.....I decided to take a day off. I have this fear that if I don't go 200% then I will just quit, so a day off was a good test for me. I hope my body is thankful!! We'll see when I get ready to run tommorow. Glad your legs are feeling better. I have heard that procedure can be very painful. You seem to be doing really well..

Kathy, I drink 8 oz of milk after each run or workout session. DH says that it helps heal stressed muscles and helps with soreness. I am not sore and he is a pretty smart fellow, so that is what I do. I actually took a break today. I didn't run or do any exercise videos. I actually enjoyed it. Here's is where I must be careful and not let my all or nothing mentality kick in. Usually if I take a day off at something then I quit it. This is one of the reasone I am so driven. I am really working on this. So......I will do my run and workout tommorow as scheduled. You guys and your support are the best.

A lady from our homeschool group jsut invited me to run a team marathon with our group. How cool is that. Each person on the team runs a part of the marathon, so noone is running the whole time. I wouldn't runmore than 5k. It is in Dallas sometime in October. I don't know much else about it. I am so pumped that I was invited to join them.

I'm with you Georgia. I do want to start swimming again. Maybe once the couch to 5k is over, then I can run a couple of days a week and start the swimming program then?? Just a thought. Leslie, It would be really cool to do a triathalon some day. I can believe I am even thinking that way. This is all soooooo wild.

I am thinking I could go to the gym and swim on Mon and Wed nights. Maybe Sat. I am afraid if I commit to the program I will overcommit. I know you can't imagine that. I am really working on not pushing beyond my limits. There just seems to be such a fine line between pushing as hard as I can and overdoing it. Patience is not one of my strong points. I want to be at goal yesterday!!

I am staying on plan today because my bandiversary is coming up and I want to be at 150 by then.

That really looks neat, Georgia. I wish I had a pool. I could go to the gym, but probably only on Mon, Wed, Thur. I wouldn't be able to alternate it with running. Hmmmmm. I may have to give it a try though. They say swimming burns LOTS of calories. Be careful with your knee. I think the eliptical is a great idea.

I have still not weighed, but man do I want to. I am going to hold out!! Can you believe it has only been 1 week. I feel like I am losing, and I was thinking I must have lost a bunch by now, and then I realized it has only been 1 week. Feels like much longer!! We can do this! I don't go back to the doctor until the 2nd, so no sneak peeks for me.... Glad you are home safe and sound Lyn. TOM definately makes me emotional. I didn't have regular periods for about 10 years prior to being banded, but I have these last 6 or 7 months. I had forgotten how irritating PMS and the whole TOM thing is. It comes way too often.