I completely understand how you are feeling. I am scheduled to have Lap band surgery on May 22nd and keep thinking the same thoughts. My older sister had Gastric Bypass surgery 3 years ago and lost 200 pounds quickly and is starting to put it back on. I don't know what the answer is, but I am going through with mine and I hope you do the same thing. The best you can do is pray for a quick recovery and ask the Lord for strength and guidance throughout this journey. It is a different learning experience for all of us. You made it this far, so why put it off? I wish you the best of luck and a quick recovery.