hopefulcandidate

Recently I have been researching WLS. I am 5'2'', 196lbs and have a BMI of 36, I am pre-diabetic, and have the possibility of developing nonalcoholic steatohepatitis, as I already have been diagnosed with a fatty liver. I dont suffer from hypertension, or sleep apnea, or have full blown diabetes. I have tried many weight loss plans like Jenny Craig, Weight Watchers. During a two year span I paid two personal trainers, a massage therapist, and an acupuncturist, to help me lose weight, while I also ate all the right things...I only lost about 15 - 20 lbs and kept it off for a few months. That got really expensive, and after I got married, I gained all the weight back plus more. My problem is I love food! I can eat and eat and make a happy plate. Its hard to turn down food and its hard to not give into temptation. I also am a truck driver, and so I dont get to exercise a whole lot. I am scared of developing type 2 diabetes and other obesity related diseases, and I feel like in order to meet the requirements for gastric sleeve surgery I have to make myself more unhealthy before I can even qualify which scares me, because I would rather prevent it rather then try to recover from it. Has anyone here been in this situation or know what I could do. Im exploring my options and for me I feel like getting the sleeve would finally force me in a healthier direction, and help me become a better more fit person. I dont want to gain any more weight because it is really starting to affect my life and how I see myself. My husband fully supports my decision, but i have other family that still thinks that if I just eat right and exercise more I can accomplish losing enough to reach my goal weight of 125, but what they dont understand is how hard it is when I feel like eating for me is something I physiologically cant control. They say just eat until you are full, well by the time im full the plate is almost empty and if it taste really good i dont want to leave any behind so i finish everything. I will eat until im bursting at the seems sometimes and then i feel so guilty. I watch all these shows like biggest loser and see those plans as unattainable for me because for one, I am a truck driver, I live and eat on the road, exercise is hard to come by and I dont have a lot of time. I can make healthy choices on the road but that leaves me starving and then getting snacks that are not so healthy to fill the hole. So at this point I dont know what to do. Any advise from anyone please!