Sweetheart. I feel so sad, but not because of your presumed "failure". Rather because you have lost sight of yourself. I know this because I lost sight of myself as well. I identify so strongly with my failures that I simply cannot see my successes. I don't have any answers for you, I only have support and encouragement. You are worth it. You are strong. You are able. You are humble. You are broken. You are fixable. You are loved. There is never a point at which you can no longer regain yourself. All is not lost, as crushing as today feels, you only have to remember two things: Inhale. Exhale. Repeat (ok, three things). You are so lovely, WLS or not...you, sweetheart, are an incredible beauty. Prayers lifted for you tonight.