My name is Stephen. I don't know where to begin. The only other person that knows I'm thinking about this is my wife. My parents would go nuts. I've always grown up to believe wls was a cop-out from diet and exercise. And yet here I am..
I'm 26, and I don't know how much I weigh bc my scale doesn't go over 400 lbs, which I guess I have surpassed in the last month. I'm ashamed of my weight. I'm constantly depressed bc it affects every aspect of my life, particularly my marriage and our sex life. I get so angry and depressed bc of how big I've become. I mean we've just been married for 6 months, isn't the bedroom supposed to be a big part of our lives? But my weight has negatively impacted it in so many ways... I'm borderline diabetic. I have high blood pressure, sleep apnea, high cholesterol.. I'm just at my wits end..
That being said, I'm addicted to food as well. I've done the fad diets, and was even successful at one, getting down to 220 lbs. after the weight loss I had to have my gallbladder removed bc of the drastic diet change developed gall stones. After I had that surgery, it was like the weight piled back on and after a while I didn't fight it. I let myself have every craving I desired. I even his my food addiction from my wife. I would sneak some fast food before coming home and eating what she cooked so I could seem atleast somewhat normal in my eating habits, to her atleast. I recently confessed my addiction to her and she's been supportive and will back whatever I decide to do concerning wls.
This is my first thread post. I've read dozens by now and feel encouraged by success stories and whatnot. I just don't feel like I have a lot of information.
If anyone has advice, reading material online that was given to then by their doctors about the surgery, what to expect before and after, cost (of yeah I have no idea how to pay for it) ... I'd be incredibly grateful. I just feel like I'm in the dark right now and I'm trying to claw my way out.
