Bek Beautyman

wow, why am I fat..... there are the excuses we all use/have used... well it started when I was a teenager, doctors changed medications and suddenly my weight took off. I then got unwell and lost a lot in very short time, which resulted in the doctors getting edgy if I lost any weight. At the same time I was unable to exercise, so the combo of hormones and eating while doing nothing saw more weight pile on. Suddenly doctors were cranky as I weighed too much, I felt I couldnt win. My weight continued to pile up over the decades. I joined weight watchers, but ended up hospitalised and put on a low fibre diet for several weeks. At which point my weight watchers team told me they couldnt assist if I was restricted to a diet with NO skins, seeds, stalks..... so that left me depressed which of course results in one eating. I joined a gym, after six months of going 4 to 5 days a week the staff decided we should look at my diet as they were concerned with my non weight loss. The decision was I dont eat enough food..... Yes I am serious..... so I tried to increase the quanity of food, and snack, but instead I felt hungry and crabby and still didnt lose any quantity of weight. There was this five ten kilograms that seesawed... needless to say I got over the gym, the fact I had begun to work out how long I needed to spend on the treadmill to burn off any item of food, I thought was unhealthy. So here I am almost ten years later, and another ten or so kg heavier, and over it. I still struggle to regularly eat three meals and two Snacks... So why I am I fat; I like food, whether it is fresh fruit, vegies, cakes, dessert, chocolate, cheeses. Give me flavours. Exercise I am not keen on, I have arthritis in my little toe, and developing elsewhere, a hip that slides out of joint, . So truthfully I am fat, and probably lazy, However I am seriously considering lapband surgery, I think I am set for the smaller quantities already lol