desertmom

Hi Kathy Thanks for replying. I know (rationally) that I will be ok.I suppose being a nurse and being a control freak doesnt help this irrational part that says if only I could be awake when they do the operation everything would be fine and dandy..... I keep saying to myself that if I can do a liquid diet for so long why cant I lose weight on my own..but I guess if I could have I would have done it before. Please dont get me wrong.I know that once I have this operation I will make it work.I have lost weight very successfully before and just couldnt keep it off.It seems that this op will help with that in the long term if you are very compliant with all that needs to be done. Well,I am saying all the things about what if I die......the same than you did and yet I know that I will go ahead and do the operation.I need to do something drastic. And all will be well..... It is good to see people like you doing so well and being so positive afterwards. Keep posting.Reading keeps me busy at the moment..... Have a nice day

hi My date is 30 April and I am glued to the chair at the moment.Reading all the posts like a maniac is keeping me from running away...

hi My name is "Desertmom" and I am petrified at the moment.... I live in Dubai in the United Arab Emirates.It is a wonderful place to be.Yes, it is the middle east but we all get along just fine here.I am from South Africa and well, it is not to safe there at the moment..(saying that with all that's going on in this region sounds so...crazy)It is a bit like "pleasantville".People are mostly happily married.fortunate to have enough money...can belong to a beach club...camping,traveling..wonderful life....it is all short term..4-6 years at most (mostly 3 years..) Except of course me.I have been dieting, not traveling...(to uncomfortable)no beach for me...camping with huge effort.the heat is of course a nightmare at my weight(up to 115 degrees in summer) It is the desert after all.... I have been fat since age 23.I am always on a diet.90 persent successful and 10 persent very unsuccessful.I mean very...... I can stay on a diet for 9 days and day 10 make up for the deprevation and way more.I have literally dieted myself morbidly obese. Anyhow,have been lurking on this site for almost an awfully long time. Never thought I would have enough guts to do any operation cause my pet fear is anasthetics.I am a qualified nursing sister and always said never any ops for me. I went for a "free" consult the 18th and well, within 4 hours had all the pre-ops done except ecchogram and bloods.....found I have high blood pressure (started meds only 24th) My lungs look like a 78 year old according to computer (I used to smoke before....)and my operation date is 30 April.... Will see phisician 28th and he will say yes or no..meds must work first..but I am still thinking maybe I can run away...only I cant get away from myself can I? I am positive if I can make it through the operation that this band will work for me.My best friend had it 2 months ago (got tired of me talking about it...)and she is absolutely crazy about it..... I have 2 girls and I desperately need to show them how to live a good, fun balanced life and I just cannot do that.I have to say do what I say not what I do...I also want to live to see them grow up and not have all the aches and pains that goes with being so overweight. All this doesnt change the fact that I am PETRIFIED and that I might still run away never to be seen again by anyone....ok just joking..I think.. Thanks for having somewhere to say these things......I surely can say this anywhere else... Desertmom

hi I havent been so relieved about this operation than right now after reading this post. I have been in the medical field before and the dr's are not like that.They are friendly but get on with the bussiness at hand.......these guys treat you like 1. you are very special or 2. you are their only patient...... I live in Dubai and all my dr's are locals and they do the same thing. I got so totally paranoid.The operation is on Saturday 30 April. I kept thinking I am their only patient and that is bad.............It is a team of doctors and they are also part of a very exclusive cosmetic surgery clinic.I am so scared ........ Not great for a first post but....... Desertmom