ponchik

Hi everybody, I have been reading the forum for about 6 months but only recently decided to sign up... I started this journey in 2000 when I first was introduced to bariatric procedures. At that time I was 20 and 300lbs. Where I grew up RNY was not an option, but I had a ballon filled with saline implanted in my stomach for 6 months. The purpose of this was to limit the capacity of my stomach and it worked great. I lost 130 pounds but then balloon was removed (they couldn't keep it in there longer, the materials would degenerate) and I gained all that weight back. Now I am at the end of the approval process for the RNY, had my 6 dietician visits, some blood work and psych evaluation done and currently waiting for approval from y insurance (BCBS). I cannot wait for this to be over with... I keep thinking what if I am declined my friends and coworkers don't know that I am planning this and only few family members were told... I am not sure, but I may be little embarrassed about having to have the surgery and not being able to lose the weight myself... I have all these fitness obsessed friends and feel ashamed when they tell me what to eat to be healthier... I know I shouldn't bother, but I do. I am very grateful for being able to follow successes and stories of all of you non-judgmental people You guys rock!