I'm Diana, I'm 38 and live in Northern California. I've been married for almost 20 years and have a 19 year old daughter.
It's hard for me to think of myself as a fat person, even though I've been fat longer than I was ever thin. In my teens I was very active and had a HUGE appetite although I never put on weight.
Then I became a wife and a mom and thus began my war with my body : (
Up and down my weight would go....I would try any and every diet to get back to 102 lbs (I'm only 5ft tall).
I did get close, I was down to 125 from the 180 I was at when I gave birth. That was after a summer of diet pills. Then I stopped and it all came back of course. I would employ this tactic at least 4 more times over 19 years. I also tried Tae Bo, Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, and this weird lady who would use breathing techniques and make weird faces to tone her body. There were many more too, but I'm sure you've heard them or tried them all before.
My friend had RNY and lost over 100 lbs. I was intrigued, but at the time I didn't qualify. Nor did I think I was "one of those people". You know, desperate, completely powerless against their body. Well, as it turns out I was....
Ten years later at 226 lbs. I was terrified. Terrified and desperate and yes, completely powerless against my body.
It took a long time before I could admit to myself that I wanted surgery. Just as I convinced myself that I didn't need it something happened. My doctor told me I did. I was stunned.
I called my husband right away expecting him to say "she's nuts!!".
He didn't.
Thank goodness he didn't. He's been my biggest supporter and I couldn't have made this decision without him on my side.
I started the process in Jan 2013. It's been months of appointments, support groups, and research. The tough part was losing 12 lbs to qualify. It was so hard.
I'm a very open person and because of that I have had to deal with a lot of people's negative views on bariatric surgery.
That's the hardest part, but overall I have a great support system.
My surgery is scheduled for Aug 6. It's tentative though. Tomorrow is my EGD. As long as its clear, it's a go : )
I'm so happy to have this to look forward to. I hope and pray it all goes well. I've never had surgery so I'm a little scared, but more than anything I'm hopeful. Hopeful for a better quality of life. I look forward to getting out of bed in the morning and springing up instead of my slow and painful ascent that has made me feel older than my years. I hope : )
Diana