tori

I started crying after i read all the replys. My whole family on my mother's side has weight problems. She had her first heart attack at 48. I keep thinking - I'm only 20 years out from that. I don't want to go down the same route. Her sister, my aunt, died at 57 and she wasn't all that overweight. She carried extra weight around her stomach and butt and they say that's the bad areas. I'm hoping if I can do this and get through it maybe I can motivate a few more people in my family. We're all dying slowly from this and this is a disease, I don't care what anyone says. It's already killed my grandparents and my aunt who wouldn't have died if they hadn't been overweight. I'm just nervous. And scared. But I'm still hopeful it all goes off without a hitch. I'm also hoping my whole overweight family doesn't still gorge every time I'm around them. THat's the hardest part for me is thinking about how I'm going to feel watching my loved ones eating everything I want to eat. Holidays are the hardest. And nighttime

I'm freaking out hard. My surgery is scheduled for July 19 and I was gung ho for the first week of my three week pre-op diet, but now I'm going over all the reasons it's bad. I don't want to be the freak in the room who can only eat 1/2 cup of food. I don't want to never be able to eat a Snickers bar again. I just want to magically be thin. Surgery seems so drastic, but nothing else has ever worked. I'm 252 - I've lost 6 pounds since starting the diet. I'm hungry and I want to go eat myself out of house and home. HELP!!!! Please. I'm also freaking out about dying on the table, even though I've read it's so safe. Anyone have any words of encouragement?