My surgery won't be until next month, and throughout the whole process, I promised myself I wouldn't allow myself to get scared the closer it got! Lol of course that didn't work. Now that it's getting closer, I find myself second guessing my decision. I worry about not waking up from the surgerg and I worry I'm making too extreme a decision. I also worry I'll have complications and worry I'll fail and gain the weight back. Many, many thoughts. These thoughts are fleeting...they never get in the way...they are more like passing thoughts. I keep my eye on the prize and try to think positive. I've seen at the weight I am now how my health and life have been negatively affected (I'm 5'4 and 269) and I'm just not going to live like this anymore. I'm too young to be stuck at home ashamed of myself and my body. Second guessing ourselves is normal...it means we're human! This is such a HUGE life transition and we are about to embark on a lifelong journey. Just know how bad you want this and it helps to keep negative thoughts at bay