BerryChic

I have not lied about it at all. I mean it's not like it's a secret that I am heavy and it will be obvious that something significant has happened. Everyone I have told is very supportive and excited for me!

Completely normal to feel scared, I did too but it's part of the process I think. I don't have to go on a pre-op diet until the day before and then it's liquid only. I'm scheduled for 10/23, completed all of my PATs today and now really looking forward to it. Getting through those really helped ease my nerves. Talk to your doc about your concerns, I guarantee it's nothing he/she hasn't heard before and it will help ease your mind too. Good luck

YES! I was just about to start a new discussion when I saw your post. I look at all of the timelines for others who have lost a lot of weight and can't help thinking, "Wow, can that actually happen for me?" One of my biggest fears is that I will go through all of this, permanently alter my anatomy & lifestyle and still not lose enough weight for it to have been worth it. I mean seriously. I can lose/gain 10-15 pounds in a week just by a change in my monthly cycle! I have over 200 pounds to lose, so the idea of being 100 pounds lighter in a year seems like fantasy sometimes. Some days it's like my surgery date can't come fast enough (Oct.23) and other days I feel like I want to delay it indefinitely. I don't mean to sound negative or uncommitted, but I actually have a hard time believing significant weight loss is possible for me since I have been so heavy for so long.

I thought I was the only one who felt this way, too. Surgery scheduled for 10/23 and I am suddenly scared. I was so excited to get this done and get on with feeling better (no more joint pain or HBP) but now I am wondering if I'll be able to handle it. I am very fortunate to have a great support system and I know this is my last chance to change my life, but I completely understand your post. I hope the important people in your life realize how much you would like their support to help you through such a major transition. Keeping my fingers crossed