Thank you everyone. I did end up rescheduling. I have to say that I had a huge sense I relief which tells me I was not ready. I am trying to focus more on the positives and preparing myself so that I can be ready and excited.
My surgery is scheduled for January 24 and I am on day one of pre op diet. It was an extrememly difficult decision for me but I just went with it. Although I keep reading how excited everyone is for their upoming surgery. I am not excited at all. I feel frustrated that I have to resort to this and that I can't just do it on my own. Why am I not excited? I don't want to go into this with a negative feeling. I want to results but wish I could get there another way. So frustrated.