Miranda

Thanks Susan! I have added a few things in there...like no sugar apple sauce and pudding and Beans...so that spices the day up I guess. Im feeling kinda good today bc I hit the gym and felt pretty good.

Ohhh gosh I dont know if I am ready to commit to a goal weight!!!! lol. Im scared! So tell me....why is this what has worked for you? I am sure you have tried lots of fad diets and things throughout the years. What has this band done to make you feel so great? I am thinking you are not not full restriction. I have not had a fill yet so I kinda feel like nothing really happened and that any day now my old ways will creap up and I will allow it. Actually I soo already hit that time 2 weeks ago and started eating everything in site. I had to stop that and put myself back on pre op diet..with a few healthy extras. I also hit the gym now everyday...I feel pretty good about that too.

Look at you LeslieLee!!!!!!!!!!!!!...when I see how ur doing I kinda light up. I read ur whole journal so I kinda read ur ups and downs so its nice to see you in a good place! Keep it up girl!!!!

Hi Kero! I soo wrote the same sort of post you wrote just like 1.5 months ago. I was banded on June 7/07. I am having a rough time with the post op stuff..just waiting for thr 1st fill. All you have to think when doing the pre op diet..."I have to do this....I dont have a choice...I can only eat what they said....I dont want to screw this up" Thats what I said all the time. Gosh I was getting to the point I was scared the fruit in my yogurt was to big. It all worked out. For me the pre op was pretty easy. Actually I am having a hard time with food right now and back to over eating that I put myself back on the pre op until my 1st fill!

Hi all! Ok here is what I did....dont know if its the best plan but I had to do something. Ok you will be shocked to hear this...ready....I put myself back on the pre op diet. I had to! I was out of control. First thing was I was back to binging. I was soo over eating. Then I was scared crapless I streached the band (well still scared about that). The I only did the pureed for half the time. Ok really...im not coming up with excuses....I soo didnt do it on purpose. I have no idea what happened there. So my first fill is not till July 23. I cannot keep going this way until then. So I joined the gym this week and went back on pre op. I have kinda convinced myself you have to do the pre op before the fill. (even though I know thats not the case). I just cant wait for the 1st fill. Not that I expected it will be a mircle worker but I think it should help!

Its a First Fill seminar I guess. Its at TLBC on July 23/07. They said plan to be there for 2 hours.

Hi all! Is anyone going to the seminar on July 23? I am not sure if it is just for first fills or what? Would love to meet some of ya!!!

ok lets do it!!! Any volunteers on setting it up? :confused:

Wow it was good to hear pple going through the same thing. Okay was not a good day either. I did eat the McDonalds i stayed away from yesterday. At this point I am eating alot of the wrong things. I just read the fact about the stomach streaching. I didnt even think about that. Now I am freaking that I have done that!!! Ahhhh. I am soo back at the same size servings and all. Ok this needs to stop!!! I JUST WANT THE 1ST FILL. Linda I feel ur pain. After the surgery I was like ok now what? Then nothing. All of that to just go back to eating bad. I know its my own doing and its only me who can stop. However its hard to stot such an addiction when nothing seems to be happening when u over eat. Hmm maybe I will call Rosanne to give me crap. I am soo joing the gym next week! Its time to get to crunch time.

Well hello there everyone!! Long time no chat! I hope all are doing well. Ok we have a problem! I got my band June 7/07. Went through the post stages. Some struggling with the puree. Some major cheats that lead to some pain. But got over it. I do not get my first fill until July 23/07. Right now I am sooo back to my old habits. I am eating bad and am not happy with myself. However all the same feelings I had before the band of food addiction is here. Now believe me I am not going all out with the bad foods. A bunch of kids I work with today wanted to go to McDonalds. I said no. So I am having some self control. I keep trying to convince myself all will change when I get the 1st fill. Now the question is is that true. Will this band REALLY make me feel full. Will it stop the feelings of temptation? Will it stop me from eating bad foods to allow me to lose weight? Now I know if I dont want to work the the band then I will have trouble. Of course that is not my intention. I guess the fear for me is last week I did gain 3 lbs back. I was not shocked due to the way I was eating. I also know this is not the lose weight stage. I guess I am super scared that the fills wont do the trick for me bc I will not intenally sneak things here and there. Its the addiction that I know some if not all understand. All this said I am being positive and really just want the fill to start bc to me its kinda like nothing has changed until I get restriction. Did anyone go through the same sort of situation at my stage of post op?

The doctor sat where!?!?!? I sooo didnt know that. I actually didnt want to ask. I didnt feel any pain at all. All I thought while I was lying there is "what the hell am I doing right now" I didnt even flinch when he put the needle in. Crazy how the mind wonders in crazy situations

I have my port right under the bra area. Im obsessed with touching it. You can totally feel it but it does not stick out. He told that is could when I lose lots of weight and we can deal with it at that time. Its weird to know you have this object just sitting there inside. Thats why I keep touching it. I had my surgery 2 weeks tommorow and the only time I notice it is when I bend to pick something up. So overall I do feel pretty lucky.

Is anyone going to the 1st fill seminar on July 23? Thats my first fill. I have soo much time to wait. Also were people sneaking things here and there before their first fill bc they knew once the fill started it was a done deal?

Well puree for me tommorow!!!! I talked to the new staff Rosanne at TLBC today. Shes awesome and from Oshawa like me!! She told mje the food does not have to be super pureed. Like I thought I had to puree scrambled eggs, cottage cheese etc. She said no just chew really good. So im soooooo excited for tommorow!!! What shall I have first!!?!? Confafo...im not so sure you can have 1/2 cup of soup in one shot. I would have like 1/4 cup juice, 1/4 cup of pudding and 1/4 protien drink at each meal. That would fill me up (i guess the best it could. So that may help with the hunger. That was so funny about the chair in the operation room. When she told me to lay down I was trying to hold the gown in all the right places. She was like "ok so just open the back". I said "well then you ight see my bum". She laughed and said "oh we will be seeing alot more later" I was like huhhhh. lol.

Well just came back from tanning...im sorry I had to say it lol. I know the risks, I know its not the best plan to get sun. To be honest...and as lame as this might sound...I already suffer from very low self esteem. Being tanned makes me feel just alittle bit better about myself. I do not do it alot but I just like to be tanned. Buttt my mom would agree with ya Yoda and Susan...so she says "thanks for talking sense into my daughter"