Your feelings are totally normal!! Please give it some more time. Several of us in a support group agreed it does not matter how much research u do or prepare u are not prepared for how this surgery makes you feel. It's just something u have to deal with. Please just relax and I bet in another month u will be carrying a different tune. I used to wake up in the middle of the night crying..... For hours I had no idea why. It happens and your feelings are real but they are temporary. You will be so glad hon. Take care of yourself take your vitamins and eat well. You will be ok!!