AshRae84

I wasn't sure where else to turn, and you guys are like my family, so I figured I'd seek advice here.... I've been dating this guy who has an autistic child, she is 10 years old. She's very unresponsive, and seems almost unaware of the world around her. He also has a very active 6 year old, who will talk your leg off! This man is not only someone that I'm crazy about, but he's also my best friend. Last night I met his daughters for the first time, the 6 year old fell in love with me, as did I her. The 10 year old, was physically affectionate towards me, and I returned that to her, but I'll be honest, I have no idea how to do this. How to connect with her, or if it's even possible to connect to her. I don't want to alienate her, or him for that matter, because I'm crazy about him, and these girls, this is just a first for me. I found myself focusing more on the 6 year old, (Which could be because she was almost impossible not to focus on!) and I felt like I wasn't paying ENOUGH attention to the 10 year old , but honestly I had no idea how to interact with her, and it broke my heart, because I wanted to so badly... Any advice you guys could give me, I would greatly appreciate! ~*Ash*~

After I had my first fill, I was so devestated, because it didn't do ANYTHING for me.... Well Friday I had my 2nd fill, and now I'm wondering if it's too tight... I read you should be able to eat a 1/3 of what you could eat before... I can only eat like 3 bites, and then I'm done. Also is it normal for the process of the food making it's way through the band to be incredibly uncomfortable? *Ash*

I find myself doing the same thing. It's like I went from binging, to being anorexic. I don't see the point in eating when I don't really get to enjoy it. I can eat like 2 bites, then I'm full, and have to let the uncomfortable digestion process sit in... *Ash*

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My doctor does his through Fluoro also. You can point feel mine through my skin, but he wanted to make sure he was in the right spot. I think it's just a precautionary matter... ~*Ash*~

I think the weight loss has helped with my esteem, and that's reflecting in my personality, and making me more open to them ya know? ~*Ash*~

Wow. I have been so busy, and haven't been able to keep up at all!! I'm working ALL the time, not to mention school, trying to find a new job, and move! It's crazy. I finally got my first fill Friday, so hopefully my weight will start dropping now. Instead of yo-yoing (which is what its done for the past few months) There is no way I have time to go back and read, so if someone would be willing to fill me in on any important news, I'd greatly appreciate it... ~*Ash*~

Wow. I have been so busy, and haven't been able to keep up at all!! I'm working ALL the time, not to mention school, trying to find a new job, and move! It's crazy. But the good part is that, I've gone from being absolutely dateless to dating THREE different guys. Now it's just trying to figure out which one I would like to develop something with... But I'm just playing it by ear for now, see where it goes... ~*Ash*~

Thank you so much for your support!! I know it's going to be a hard battle, but its one I'm willing to go through, because of the way I feel about this family. And I welcome anymore input/advice anyone has. ~*Ash*~

Thank you very much. I realize just how easy it would seem for me to just walk away, but I don't think I could ever do that. They mean the world to me, and I realize if I'm going to fall for him, I have to take the whole package, and I'm ok with that. I just don't want to feel like I'm showing the younger one more attention, because she's the 'normal one' (For lack of a better term at the moment.) But it's really hard, because she's at that age, and I'm new, and she's begging me to watch movies with her, and show me her Disney Princess night gown, etc. I should probably also mention, he is a widow, so 100% single father of these 2 girls. And he's by himself right now, but I want to be a part of that equation... ~*Ash*~

She is very limited in her speech, and will randomly say things that don't really mean anything (At least not to anyone but her.), and she is constantly wringing her hands, and playing with her hands. She also seemed to be limited in her focus, the only things she would really pay attention to were her father, and the movie Ghostbusters. I just want to help him as much as I can, and I don't know how to do that. It's a very scary concept for me, but at the same time I'm up for the challenge, because I care so much for him, and these girls. ~*Ash*~

Right now, I'm a total Dustin & Eric fan. I think Dustin is just awesome, but I also think Eric was the best person to pick to be america's player. He does such a good job of being in the action, but flying under the radar at the same time... I kinda had a feeling Kail was screwing herself when she wanted to be the 'pawn.' Because I knew Dustin wanted her out... ~*Ash*~

Ok, guys, I need some advice. When I went into my Dr's office for my first consulation (Which was on 4/27/07), I went in basically prepared to self pay. Well first of all I have to submit to my insurance company, just to make sure they won't pay. They have a list of things my insurance company requires. (Pulmonology, Cardiology, Psych, and 3 *or 6* month supervised diet) Well I have dieted all my life (Trimspa, Ediets, Weight Watchers, the plain and simple 'cutting back') and have always lost, but then gained the weight lost, and then some. I have no documentation of this from any of my physicians. My concerns are these, in my insurance packet (I have First Health Insurance), it states that Gariatric procedures are excluded unless deemed medically necessary, by a comorbidity. Well I have no medical problems, (I'm not a diabetic, my sugars are fine, my blood pressure is fine, etc.) I have a family history of heart disease, diabetic, etc. and I know that if I don't do something about my weight now it will be inevitable that I will eventually suffer from all of these things, and then some. I have no issues losing weight, it's just keeping it off. So my question is if I go through this diet program, and weight another 6 months, what are the odds of my insurance company STILL Denying me because I CAN lose weight, and I have no comorbidities. Sorry if this seems like rambling, it's just hard to explain, and I have no idea what to do... :help: ~*Ash*~:help:

Doing lunch with my coworkers at Chili's today... I'm thinking the kids pasta with marinara, since I'm still on soft foods... What do you think? ~*Ash*~

Ok, I haven't got to read all the posts I'm behind on, cuz... well there's ALOT, but I am so excited this morning! I have ONE MORE POUND, and I will be in TWOterville!!!!! ~*Ash*~

So far I like eggs, instant potatoes, mac & cheese, pudding, and I kinda like refried beans... I don't like cottage cheese at all... I'm just so limited because of so many things I don't like. But I'm a creature of habit, so eating the same things over and over doesn't bother me... ~*Ash*~

Ok... I had 2 dates this weekend. The first was a disaster, I don't want to go into it, but let's just say I ended up alone at his apartment, and he ended up arrested... God it was crazy. The 2nd was with a really good friend of mine whom I'm crazy about, but is going through a messy divorce and isn't looking for a girlfriend... So yeah... ~*Ash*~

I am right there with ya! I get to start mushies on Wednesday, and I can't wait! I was banded on the same day as you. When did you get to start mushies?? ~*Ash*~

I just called my mom and had her check my dietician papers, and I can't have meat til I'm on solids... :-( ~*Ash*~

That sounds sooo good! But is that allowed in Mushies? ~*Ash*~

Can you guys give me some suggestions? Because like I said, I'm extremely picky, so Im not sure what I'm going to eat. ~*Ash*~

OMG guys! I haven't been on since Friday morning, and you killed me reading all these pages. Well I'm frustrated because I'm only down 1 pound in the past week... (Even tho it still leaves me at like a pound a day) Wednesday starts Mushies, and I can't wait! They said I could have Macaroni & Low Fat Cheese, and I'm such a picky eater, that I'm sure I will live off of Mac & Cheese and Instant Potatoes for the next 2 weeks... (If anyone has any suggestions, feel free to clue me in) ~*Ash*~

Well I'm back at work again, just thought I'd say Good morning to all my Lucky #7's. ~*Ash*~

Oh! New picture, very cute! You're a hottie yourself. ~*Ash*~

When you created your ticker you should've gotten a pin #, and you can go back and update the ticker, and it will automatically update the image in your signature! No need to always be updating your signature, thank god! ~*Ash*~