Darnia1201

Thanks. I will try smoothie king.

I have not had the surgery yet but I have two more consultations before I start. I have to meet with the surgeon and the dietician. Have you found a good tasting Protein Drink? Or is that a misnomer? Almost forgot, congratulations. I don't know about you but I have a vanity bone growing inside and I stay on clothing and shoe sites. I am so excited. Keep up the good work. Darnia1201

Yoshikitty, I agree with you. I was thinking it was cheating but you answered my question perfectly. The operation is a tool but what I do with the tool is totally up to me. This is the first step in jumpstarting my weight loss but the hard work will be in maintaining it. Thank you so much. You have given me a fresh and less accusatory perspective on the whole thing. Cheating. Who am I cheating on. People really don't know the emotional turmoil obesity puts on you. Thanks a million Yoshikitty!!!!

It took me a while to decide on the surgery because I thought it would not be my accomplishment but the surgeons's. Did you feel that way?

The process for my surgery in Alabama will not take a long time so I am excitedly nervous. I just attended a college homecoming and I looked like I had eaten everything that everyone else lost. My surgery is the jumpstart to a brand new life. I have been defining myself by what I cannot do and I have a child who is watching me fail this test with obesity. I can't let that happen. I also have to remove the crutch I have used for all of my failures in life. My fear of success rest on my body image. I know it shouldn't but it does right now. I am in need of counseling. I am going to get it. My weight gain is a manifestation of something else and need to find out what. I don't want to go down this path again - EVER!!!!!