meltingmama

I originally thought I wanted the Lap band, but the more I have been reading about it The more I am convinced it isn't for me. I even was a semifinalist in a contest to win one, but had to forfeit do to an emergency brain surgery(her 9th in 5 yrs) on my daughter. Last year my insurance company finally started to cover weightloss surgery and I started all the paper work for documentation for the 6 months of medically supervised diet and in the 4-5 month of documentation my mother almost died and because I a missed my appoints-I would have to start all over again. Than this yr, the ins company is lifting the 6 month medically supervised diet documentation as of Feb 1. So, I decieded to try again. I read about the gastric bypass, the gastric sleeve, gastric plication, mini gastric bypass. I am leaning toward the gastric sleeve at this point because of all the positive things on this post. Yet in the back of my head, since I have been repeatedly disappointed due to circumstances out of control-I am in need of some friends to help me through this journey. All I hear are negative remarks from my friends and family regarding surgery. My mother told me, she wants me skinny, not dead. Friends tell me to just pretend I had the surgery and just eat less. Ok people, I have been trying that for yrs and it hasn't worked. I always keep my weight under control within 25 lbs, until a terrible divorce, custody battle, a sick child-who has a 1-50 brain disease and I focused all my energy to find doctors to save her life. Right now she is stable and I need to get this weight off to be around to take care of her. Any words of advice or wisdom would be greatly appreciated. Thanks to all who read this and help!