Maddie

I had the first consult with my surgeon 2 weeks ago and came home full of emotion. The weird thing is that, happiness wasn't one of the emotions i felt. I felt so anxious, scared, etc. Late that night after tossing and turning for hours, I got up and started searching for some answers. That's when I found this forum. WHEW!!! Let me tell you, I thought I was losing my mind. But when I read how so many others had been on the same roller coaster of emotions, I finally relaxed and saw it was normal to feel this way. I'm scared about having such major surgery for something "self-inflicted". That whole feeling like a failure thing hit me all of a sudden. I know I need to look to the future and all that but, it's still hard to swallow. Thanks goodness I found terms on here like "food funeral" and stuff like that. Because I thought I was being really foolish. I am already in mourning. lol Part of me says this is the best thing to happen to me in 30 years. The other part of me says ohhhhh noooooooooo! Anyway, I am scheduled for the sleeve on June 4th. Just wish it would hurry up and be over with. I want to thank you all already for the help I have found in just reading the forum.

I'm scheduled for June 4th.