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This is my first time on this website. I've been reading jenpez's thread? Is each little message considered a thread? Or what do you call each comment? The point is, I had lap band surgery done three and a half years ago. Lost 60 pounds, thrilled me to death, I bought new clothes and actually felt good about it and pretty. Then I quit losing weight. I started to get worried. Then I started a game. I was having a lot of problems with my band throwing up. And I was sick to death of my own cooking. I started to cheat big time. Chocolate milk and goes past my band with no problem. One thing led to another and the old cycle begin again. I have gained 20 pounds. I am so depressed and frustrated about it. How did I lose the 60 pounds? I can't seem to get back into gear and start losing again. Like what you said about failure, I understand completely. I waste so much time beating myself up and telling myself what a failure I am. How could I go to all of this travel and expense and mess it up? I just don't know what to do. I don't know how to get started again. I know I'm working against myself not only with what I eat but mentally and emotionally. I'm starting to crawl back into my cocoon, in other words stay at home and isolate myself from people. I desperately need help to get back on track. I am terrified that I will gain the rest of the weight back and even more. I know this is working against me. Help, please. Has anyone out there gone through this and crawled out of this thinking a hole successfully?

My surgery was Aug. 10, 2011. I've lost about 60-65lb.s in all. I'm wearing attractive clothes again...not the "fat uniforms" that I used to wear. I still have a problem with "me" & temptation. But I am determined to stay healthy.I can now play with my grand children...get down in the floor...& get up again like I did years ago. Yes, I flabbed at first, but gradually, my skin started to tighten up. I would loose pounds & then stop. Then i would suddenly realize that I had dropped another clothing size. Talk about ":wow'. It was quite an adjustment. When I get tempted, I look at photos that I have in a special file on my pc. It is full of the worst pictures of me at my heaviest weight at the worst possible angles. I open that file & ask myself if I really want to go there again. It's hard in that my head gets hungry (not my stomach!) Boy do me & myself have some arguments!But, now i wore heels...really sharp looking ones...for the first time in years...comfortably. And I can cross my legs again, like a lady. Love it. I feel younger, feminine, attractive again & it's wonderful. Just follow your doctor's orders 7 take it easy at first. If you have any concerns..no matter how silly they may seem to you, they arn't to your doctor. The more that you know & understand, the better it will be for you & your doctor. You will be in my prayers this am.