semhamm

I am 36 years old, I am married and have a 8 year old son, also have a step son and step daughter. I am 285 lbs the largest I have ever been in my LIFE! I lived 15 years of my life with my 1st husband who was emotionally abusive to me then turned physical. I am basically eating myself to death... I can't breathe.. I have to sit down to clean my house! But yet I still stuff my face with fast food...maybe because I hate the way I feel and look and it doesn't matter anyways. I am deciding to have the lapband surgery hopefully by December... to help me restore my life...to give me confidence and to find the person that has been lost for 20 years. I want to live... I want to be able to play with my son and not be short of breath or no energy to play. I don't want to go on living life like this.... because it is not living when you can't walk trash out to the dumpster without being able to breathe!