Haydee

okay i just came back from office lunch... i had beef fajitas, no tortillas, chips and cheese and some salsa. Then i had a med slice of turtle ice cream cake. I think I've eaten my alloted calories for today, LOL. I gotta go log it in mydailyplate.com. WOW judy, sounds like you're able to do quite a bit on the wiifit. I'm definetly gonna have to look into getting me one... well so far in about three days i haven't binged. i don't really know why. Maybe because every time I'm about to I have to think about why I'm about to and then it kinda stops me from doing it? And also because I've been super busy. I usually eat out of boredom. This weekend I barely had enough time to sit down and eat dinner on sunday. All my other meals were consumed as I was running through the house or running on my way somewhere. On Saturday when I was hosting the wedding I hadn't had a bite to eat at all and it was already 4pm. I grabbed some crackers and summer sausage and put them in a napkin in the pocket of my skirt. While I was directing people where to go I would nibble on it. They lasted me for about an hour!

So far in my piehole today: cup of skim milk

I'm with ya Terry, Mondays suck. No, I didn't get to rest on Sunday. It was a busy weekend as usual. Saturday I got my new formal dining room set. Then I had a wedding Saturday night. Then after the wedding we went out for my aunt's birthday. That night my mom informed me that one of my 2nd cousins was getting married Sunday night and she'd like for us to go. ONE DAY'S NOTICE. Ugh. And then on Friday Juan's mom had called me and invited me to a wedding expo that was going to take place on Sunday also. She thought that we could get ideas from it. So there went my Sunday... Laura - so sorry that you be the one that had to clean up after your sister. Don't you just wish you could just light a match to the whole thing and have it be done with? What are ya'll doing with the house now? Michelle - your lip is sunburned. Do you have any aloe vera? That would help. TracyKS - sending you purple power... Just remember that all this time the band hasn't been the only one working. You've also put in alot of effort. So don't think that unless the band is working at 110% that you'll gain. I'm sure you'll have a little bit of fun but just remember how good your skinny jeans feel... ((((Jenn)))) - Go back and read some of my posts about what's going on with me and Juan. Seriously, once you put yourself and your happiness as your first priority everything else falls into place. It only took me 13 years to realize this but better late then never, right?? All this time I only had myself to answer to but Jenn, you need to think about your two kids. The way you feel about yourself projects onto them. If they see you sad, mopey and always stressed then that makes them feel like that too and they are never really just truly happy. So...do it for them...

Okay, off I go to start my weekend. I've got an appointment with a bride tonight at 6:30, a wedding tomorrow and then I get to relax all day Sunday. I'm not doing a single friggin thing.... Love you lots girls, have a great weekend...

Yay Laura!! that's awesome. I know I can do it if I put my mind to it but I can't seem to get in that mindset. I start off being really good and then bam I binge at night. TracyK - I wish she did two for one!! She doesn't take any type of insurance so I'll have to pay out of pocket... TracyKS - I got an HR question. If I put away flex money (is that what it's called?) can I use it towards these sessions?

Guess what girls?? I just made an appointment with Mary Jo from Big Medicine. She's the psychotherapist that works on the patients before they have surgery. I never had any type of head work done pre-banding and now I think it's biting me in the butt. She gave me a few suggestions to start with before my appointment comes up and I'm going to share them with ya'll to see if it helps any of ya'll. She told me to read "The Taming of the Chew" by Denise LaMonthe (sp?). She told me to keep a little book with me at all times and everytime that I'm going to put something in my mouth that I should write down why it's going in my mouth. Just to write down what the voice in my head is saying to me as I'm eating whatever it is I'm about to eat. Ya'll have always been a great help but I really feel stuck and no matter how many times ya'll yell "THROW THAT SHIT AWAY", i never really do and I keep buying more of it... I need to figure out why I keep stuffing my face even when I'm far from hungry... As my sessions progress I'll make sure to share anything that I learn here with ya'll...

yah, he kinda is popping out of his shirt. he was twisted funny to take the pic and the shirt was tight to begin with... he likes his shirts fitted. i had tgi fridays last night! i had the pork chop. it was so good and juicy. i hate when salmon tastes fishy. i hate fishy fish...

okay, i'm done with the thread hijack... he he he

another one... (and yes, that's how juan smiles when we say, "big smile!")

this one is from last month... juan's birthday dinner...

My sister (who had lapband surgery in May) and my cousin...

me and my chubby cheeks....

Kat - band camp! Too funny!! I would love it though! Pam - I don't know what it is or what happened to make me finally snap but yes, I've very happy and at peace right now. Me and Juan are slowly starting to make progress. Something that we hadn't done in 10+ years of us being together. Didn't realize that all it would take was for a change in my attitude... towards me, towards him, towards life in general. Not taking everything so seriously. Jane - sorry that doctor was sucky. I would have cried!! Even though he was rather blunt he was just being honest and trying to give you the facts. We're here for you!! What do you need to do to get back on track? Are you still keeping your food diary?

put a few margaritas in me and we'll see.... :w00t:

Here are two of me... I've got more to post but they're in my mom's camera so I'll get those tomorrow...

okay girls, some pics.... hope i do it right... This one is me and my two sisters and my cousin and her new husband.

ugh, Tracy, I haven't had one drop of water today. I had one cup of coffee for breakfast and i'm munching on a turkey sandwich right now.

laura - ha ha ha, what a jerk! And an idiot too! does he not realize that ya'll TALK to each other, LOL...

Complacency is what got me to 300 lbs. Everyday that I decided to stuff my mouth with something bad because... "Oh well, this one thing doesn't matter". And I feel that way everyday now. And now I'm back up to 235!

OH by the way, this was the first time I had been on a plane since I was banded. OH MY GOSH YA'LL, I fit in the seat with room to spare. I started crying when I sat down and buckled my seat belt and crossed my legs. I could also put the tray all the way down and my belly wasn't in the way. But here is the best best part... the guy sitting next to me was built like a football player so he had a really big upper body and he was having a hard time staying in his part of the seat. So I scootched over closer to Juan and told him I didn't mind if he put his arm down and got comfortable. He was so grateful and he said he got lucky that he sat down next to someone SKINNY. Woo freaking hoo. I wanted to kiss him!! So then the whole plane being late and having to turn around didn't really bother me so much because I was literally in the clouds with that comment!

WOO HOO!!! Man, I needed these posts today. I'm bone tired and putting myself at the end of my to-do list again. This whole damn week has passed in the blink of an eye... I can't believe it's already Thursday. I have another wedding on Saturday... but let me tell ya'll about my first one... Everything was so beautiful... The grounds were gorgeous because it had rained the whole week before so everything was green and in bloom. We set out hundreds of tea candles all over the gazebo area and at all the tables. Her ceremony started right at dusk so the sky had that orangey pink color that makes our skin look like it's glowing. I was bawling as soon as I saw her! So professional, right?? He he... The bride had choosen not to have a rehearsal so things didn't flow as smoothly as I would have liked but for being our first time we did a really good job. Everyone kept saying how beautiful everything was and how much they were enjoying themselves. They also said that we were all so professional and they felt very confident in us. That was a huge compliment! Okay so then the wedding was supposed to start at 7:30 but it didn't start until 8 because the bride was running late. It was over at around 11pm. By the time we finished picking everything up and washing everything and putting everything away, it was around 2am. We were so exhaused but we jumped in the pool to relax a little bit. Okay, the next morning we had a 8am flight to Mexico. So we got up at 6am and headed to the airport. I seriously just woke up and put on clean clothes and left. My mom had taken my dress and Juan's suit with her the day before so all I took was an extra change of clothes with me. We get there and our flight leaves 20 min late. Okay, no big deal. Once we are in the air we start feeling alot of turbulence. Kinda scared. WELL, with only about 20 min left until we land the pilot comes on and tells us that we have to turn around and go back to Houston. WTF?? There is something wrong with the plane and the mechanics that have to work on it are back in Houston. Okkaaayyyy. So we turn around, land in Houston again and get on another plane... Finally arrived in Mexico around 2pm. My cousins wedding was absolutely beautiful and she looked gorgeous. My dress fit me like a glove and everyone kept commenting how gorgeous I looked. I can't wait to share the pictues with ya'll. I didn't take a camera with me so I'm waiting on my mom and my aunt to email me the pics so I can post them. Sorry for the novel!

Hi girls, I'm back!! Both weddings were wonderful and I can't wait to tell ya'll all about them. I've got a few meetings here at work that I need to get ready for but I'll be back later. Missed ya'll!!

Hiya girlies! How's everyone doing on this gorgeous Friday. Please please pray for no rain for tonight. I've got a beautiful young bride getting married tonight and I want everything to be perfect for her! Pammy - I keep forgetting to send them to you! I remember you everytime I'm munching on them though, he he he! I'll get them out to you Monday, love you lots... No time for personals today. I've got to get my inventory worksheets done and our credit card statement balanced before I leave at 10am this morning. Wish me luck for tonight and keep me in your prayers!!!!! I'll talk to ya'll monday and i'll post pictures of me and my dress that I'm wearing to my cousins wedding saturday. we fly out early tomorrow morning and then fly back late sunday night.

WELCOME BACK PAMMMMMMELA!!! we missed you bunches! Here is an update on how our little violet plants are doing... They are so gorgeous!

Hi Terry! You look awesome now even with residual swelling! The difference is so subtle but WOW! Great results... Things with Juan are going alot better. I know that it's not anything that he's doing because he hasn't really changed much but since I'm working on myself my outlook has really changed the dynamics of how I feel towards him. Umm, I don't know if I'm explaining myself right. Well let me try... I used to put him on a pedestal, putting him before me. When I did that I was very unhappy because I felt like I wasn't on a pedestal in his life. So like I said, I was unhappy, always bitchy, always whining. So then when I said fuck it, i'm responsible for only myself and how I feel things just started to change. Now that he's not the center of my life I feel alot happier, alot freerer and my attitude has changed. He's definetly noticed the changes but he's being cautious because he feels like it might be temporary? But we do spend time together and we talk alot more than we had been when we were living under the same roof! Whatever happens happens...