bellecha

You know, I have to pity people who would do such an act. Their lives are so miserable they must do some act like that to try to elevate themselves. I am happy that you were able to confront this moment and I hope you realize this was her issue, not yours. For whatever reason she was threatened by you ... your intelligence, your relationship with members of the family, your faith ... something ... This is how bullies behave, whether they're 8 or 80.

Bigdogkc .... I am proud of you for recognizing your issue, posting it here: asking for advice, then posting the next day that you made it through another night..
I was there: committed to the surgery but still going through so much mentally during pre-op it didn't seem do-able .... But i did it, as you are... We made it through...
It is ok to feel the way you did, it is ok to vent your frustrations...
not one (1) of us will be perfect every day of pre-op or post-op ...we will flub up...but .... we remember tomorrow is another day, to try harder, to feel more confident, and to smile when we realize "we CAN do this"..
good luck, stay strong and believe in yourself !!!