Anewman

I had my surgery in March of 2011 and I was over 390 pounds. I'm now holding pretty steady at 225 pounds but went through a major depressive episode a year ago, was actually hospitalized for a Rx drug overdose. I couldn't believe this happened to me...I actually tried to commit suicide and was unconscious on my bathroom floor for nearly ten hours. The docs couldn't believe I survived and said I must have had an angel with me. My wife and daughter found me and my son has been so confused by what happened. They thinking had a brain aneurysm not a psychiatric episode. The depression has remained. I'm on meds and go to counseling but I struggle every day. I have stopped exercising, am smoking again, and throw up nearly every day. I am hiding how poorly I'm doing from the world because I still get positive accolades for my weight loss. Can anyone relate?

Dear Sissy, You are very kind to share your personal experience with me. It is of some comfort to know I am not alone with this debilitating illness. I've struggled with anxiety for years and years and the depression was very mild in the past and then after surgery; I just completely fell into a deep depression. I take Zoloft and neurontin and I believe the meds have done all they can do for me physically and chemically. I know the rest of the work must come from within me. Exercise, better habits of mind and body and real mental health work are what I must do but I am so tired that it has become much harder to do the real work. The thanksgiving holiday was especially difficult...I have come to dread the holidays but do all I can to give my family the best I can so that keeps me going.

Hey everyone, I'm new here and have been enjoying reading your posts. I had my surgery on March 1 2011 which puts me in the just over a year category. I was 390 pounds at my heaviest just prior to surgery and I am now 225 pounds! I have slowed way down on dropping the pounds and hope to lose another 25 to 45 more pounds. I had many post-op problems...dehydration, acid reflux, vomiting and am just starting to feel a new "normal" after so long. I hope to connect with others to share the emotional and physical challenges and changes that have come with this process.

I am 6' 1" and I'm 48...how about you and how r u doing?

Hi momscholar, Good luck to you....it will be a tough journey, but you will get through it and you will be a whole, new person!