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Okay so pretty much all my life I've been over weight there was a time in my life when I abused drugs, & ended up loosing weight and had a cute thick body.. after a while I just could not understand why I was harming my body, like someone should of smacked me and been like STOP! I had no one but myself to stop, met a wonderful man who loved my curves and thickness got pregnant , married , and had two more children! and even though i have gained 114 pounds in total of 5 years he still loves me! I can say I am very  happy with my marriage but not with myself, My children deserve a better active mother who can run and play with them and not one who's back hurts of legs just cant walk anymore! I have done this to myself and with help of the LAP-BAND I know I will follow things correctly and be able to be a healthy person I have done so many different diets and its not easy feeling like I am starving cause I need to diet, I am so young and have many years ahead of myself.



I know this will help me and if the correct choice for me, I always asked myself watching the worlds biggest loser t.v show ( "I wish I had someone hounding me like that.") should i sign myself up for that? But i cant even stand being away from my babies when I am working what the heck would I do if I was gone for an even longer time than just a few hours? I am looking very forward to this big step in my life and I have done so much research on this! somethings gotta give. The first day after my "info appointment" I went home took a garbage bag and went right to the food rack and fridge and threw away everything that I knew was a horrible choice for me and my family this new lifestyle change will affect everyone in my household as I am the chef & the change starts with me. I need to be health for my kids as well as myself & My kids need to be healthy for them self. This world we all live in is so judge mental and I cant picture my children being called names like I was, (well people tried but got beat up for it) I want my babies to be able to have a social life way different than mine! I have already made all my appointments the same day I left the doctors office wow it is so many different things needed to be done but well worth it in the long run! I may be looking at sometime in august to have the LAP-BAND done if all goes well with the testing I made appointments just waiting on the days to come for me to go in to have the test done. & Sure there is lot's more for me to put in  my story but for now the story ends. as a new journey begins soon!!