Starting Out

I told everyone I knew that I was having surgery and let the chips fall where they may. One of my friends didn't like it and wouldn't discuss it or listen to me talk about the surgery. She is no longer a friend, just an aquaintance now. My best friend - said she wants me to be happy and healthy and if this is what I need to do - she is with me all the way. My mother hates fat people so she supported me fully. My sister can't have surgery for health reasons so she is mad at me for having it and said a lot of bad things about elective surgery. Now 3 weeks after surgery and 26 pounds lost - the same people who disagreed with the surgery aren't happy about my weight loss either. Those who love me are happy for me but most important of all I am happy with myself!

I just realized I don't have pain when I lay in my bed anymore. I slept through the night for the last two nights! I weighed myself one time after surgery (7 days) and lost 16 pounds but after reading about so many people seeing stalls in weight loss after a couple of weeks, I decided to wait until my post surgery appointment to weigh again. I'm anxious but I don't have accurate scales so I think I'm better off just waiting. Gas still sucks and I'm starting to think this is going to be forever. I've tried everything I can think of and everything I've read here. None of it helps much. I took medicine every day of my life for acid reflux before surgery and it always fixed it - Now nothing works. Before the surgery I took a time released sleeping pill every night. That pill doesn't work anymore. I am taking the same medicine but 10 less mg and not time released now. Don't know why that change happened. I have been really tired this week and I think part of it is from going back to work so soon but then again if I sit around at home I have to keep getting up and walking to get rid of the gas so I might as well be at work. I guess I didn't realize until I read this post that I must be feeling a little down. I think I'm feeling confused and anxious because I used to be content to be at home watching tv when I wasn't at work. Now I'm starting to feel less content with sitting at home. Kinda scary - I might have to actually start doing things outside of home for social reasons!

I had gastric sleeve surgery on December 20, 2011. I had no idea how drastically my tastes and feelings would change. I thought I paid total attention in the seminars and I was well informed about all of the issues. Now I know I was kind of blinded by the light! My surgeon and the center I went through were excellent about informing me. I guess I was missing little pieces of information and maybe I still wouldn't catch them or necessarily believe them if I started this all over again. I think the first thing I didn't take seriously enough was that my tastes would change. The first week - every single thing tasted awful except milk. Unfortunately after surgery I developed lactose intolerance. The lactaid made me puke so no milk for me. That problem was short lived and I can have milk again! I didn't care for milk before the surgery now I crave milk! I am (was) a sweet tea addict. I admit I wanted it so bad I cheated and took a few drinks. It didn't taste good anymore. I kind of feel like I'm in mourning for sweet tea. I know it is good for me that I didn't like the taste anymore but it has been a staple for me since I was a kid. I was so excited when I could have cottage cheese - I used to love it - Don't anymore. I ate the first scrambled egg with a tiny amount of melted cheese last night. It tasted so good! I threw it all up later but it still tasted great when I was eating it so as soon as I learn how to eat slow enough and chew enough time I know there is one thing that tastes good. I know I am still in a learning phase with this and things will get better but right now I feel more preoccupied with food than I ever have in my life.