Tell me this isnt happening to me. Omg. I must be losing my mind. My gf is the best gf who loves and nutures me and I know she has my back 100%. I just cant help revisiting all the bad things shes done in the past and all the bad habit she has today and refuses to change and its literally driving me insane. I have been reading and come to find out this is more common than I thought. Im going to end up being single again because of my surgery. She knew this before hand but prayed that it wouldnt happen. Well I vowed to let her stay with me until she finishes school in hopes my mind changes but as for right now I am done. Shes done nothing wrong for me even to feel this way. Smfh.
I am a strong person and I cant believe this surgery had this effect on me. I will survive with or without her but it has zapped the love right out of me. I feel so bad cause I am her sole supporter and she cant make it on her own. I must be a f**king horrible person.
She took me for granted and when I broke the news to her she sat down for a few days and realized that I am her true love and I feel like I am just throwing that away. I just dont have it in me to stay. Its gone.
I just hope I snap out of it but I cant live a lie and stay if it doesnt come back cause its unfair to her, my son and myself. Damn you Gastric Sleeve.