I was in a new state KS afterliving in Cali for the 1st 35 years of my life. My mother passed away and my life was going in the poo hole. I was 412 pounds at 5'11. I got the money and got the lap band done. At 1st I lost 110 pounds then I learned how to cheat. Then my father passed away and my knees would getting very bad. I put about 50 back on. I deal with a lot of self hate but I am not sure why. I want to lose the weight for my health. so I am here to fine others who I can help and can help me.