Hello,
I understand how you feel,I had to have my band removed because it caused a infection in my liver, kidney, and ribs. When they removed my band i had a hole in my stomach and had a tube put into my nose and down my tummy for 5 days. It was the worest, but that being said i cryed the whole time because they toke my band and the idea of being fat again scared me. I was 320 and went to 168. its been over a month and i am at 179. i have gained 11 pounds in a month. The doctor said i needed the weight because i had lost so much Water that my kidney were not working. Now its been a month or so and i have had time to think about everything and the idea of me being 320 again is so scary but what if i keep the band and the infection went into my blood stream and it killed me? I know something was wronge for a month but had no idea it was the band. I am determined to do it on my own. I try to eat right and excerise alot. During the weekend are the worest because i want to go out to dinner ect.... so just have to remind myself that i am human and it is going to happen. The next day i just go right back to eating like i should. Have you thought about the sleeve? I dont think i can get it but i am going to check into it and see what i can do. Hang in there and try to remeber your human and things will happen that you dont have control over but you can do it!