The children were worth it but time to get back on track.. I think you need to find a fill Doc close to you that you can talk to. Also there is a book called "The Lifestyle Guide for the banded". You can get it through Fill Centers USA. It has turned a lot of peoples lives around. I read it and it will completely educate you on the band and eating with the band. The best thing is it will motivate you. Some of the stuff--no milk, etc I dont agree with, but generally speaking it is right on. It is the only book out there to help just the banded. Dont quit, talk to Fill Cneters about a Doc near you. If they dont have one near you start calling around until you find one you trust and get started. The very best of luck to you.