It is only natural for you to have the jitters....your are human. But just think of it as an investment in yourself. I am a newbie to all of this myself. My surgery was 2/24/11and I go in for my first adjustment on Monday 4/4/11, I am a bit nervous about it but I am ready for the next step in my journey to the new and healthier me. You should still be able to enjoy foods just not at the same quantities. I too love food and I am always having to put myself in check and look at the big picture. I want to look and feel better, I want to become a healthier person for me and my family....I want to live a long and happy life and that simply was not going to happen with me being so obese. I don't know if my words have helped you at all, I hope they have. But don't be so rough on yourself...easy does it...just put one foot in front of the other you will do just fine and you will be fine...I have all the faith in the world in you, in us. It is not easy being over weight....remember, we did not become overweight over night, it happened over time and over time we will learn new and healthier habits together Best of luck to you!!
Chelleitaz