I'm heading for surgery on 2/17/11. I completely understand your feelings - having those same feelings myself. I've lost 55 lbs on the pre-surgery program so I feel I'm well on my way . . . but it's still a life changing decision . . .
I'm apprehensive about having the surgery. I know this is the right decision for me . . . but there is that fear factor! Hoping I have all my ducks in a row and that things will go without a hitch. Praying!
I'm using Dr Machado. She has been awesome to work with so far. Very informative!! There is a class they offer with all kinds of details - I think it meets once a month. Good luck!